Ana and Iya - pearls of my eyes

The end of this year girls, you are going to be 20 years old. Time really fly and I didn't realize that you are grown up women. Since nenek left us, Ibu feel so empty and lonely. If ayah didn't come back, my life even more miserable. Ibu keep hoping that both of you will be staying home because I feel so lonely in this big house. When you are around at least I can make myself busy for you. Ibu is very lucky because adik is travelling from home to college. I see adik everyday and we watch spongebob square pants every night. Ibu don't want to force you Iya to travel with me because your lectures start at 8 o'clock in the morning. I need one hour to dress up and I will make you late to attend your lecture. But Ibu will learn to dress up faster so that we can travel together in the morning to work. I am very happy to have both of you around me all the time. Anyway, Ibu are very grateful to both of you for always being there for me. I guess you cannot run away from me either. We need each other right. When you were born, nenek advised Ibu to keep your umbilical cords in a safe place the way she did for the rest of her children including my umbilical cord. She said the reason for it was, wherever your children go, they will be close to you and they wont go far away. That advice was from your great grandmother to nenek. I guess, looking retrospectively, untill her last breath, at the age of 87, all of her children were always with her, at least every weekend. The morale of the story is, Ibu will keep your umbilical cords safe in my bag so that both of you won't go so far..... InsyaAllah. Frankly speaking, I think the umbilical cord story is just a taboo. The most important thing is, you yourself. All of us have taught you and brought you up in the very best manner that we could. Ibu doakan both of you successful in you future undertaking and make the family proud of you.

Do you still remember your 18th birthday? Ibu wrote a poem for both of you and I was crying when I read it to all the guests. Emotional pulak masa tu. Anyway, the guests were your brothers, sisters, aunties, uncles and of course nenek and atuk were presence as well. ibu would like to put it here so that you can read from time to time and share with others too.

Nukilan untuk Ana dan Iya dari Ibu

23 november 91 mengimbau kembali

Rentetan sejarah tercatit kini

Gelaran ibu anugerah ilahi

Puteri nan kembar bak bidadari

Lahirmu penuh tanda tanya

Kehadiran dua mu tidak diduga

sayup suara tangisan pertama

Bahagia ibu yang gundah gulana

Hadirmu berdua membawa cahaya

Mengisi kesunyian jiwa yang lara

Syukurnya ibu tiada tolaknya

Hendak ku tangis tiada suara

Syukurnya nenda mu bukan kepalang

Keraguan di hati segera hilang

Sangkakan satu dua yang datang

Pemecah tradisi si anak minang

Putih kulitmu bak telur dikupas

Keayuan wajahmu pandang tak puas

Bisikan azan di telinga dilafaz

Moga awalan mu tak tercemar balas

Kaulah permata buah hati ibu

Dirimu dibelai umpama ratu

Kasihnya ibu tiada sekutu

Mendidik dirimu tak kenal jemu

Amanah tuhan semesta alam

Keatas ibu siang dan malam

Kasihku baja sayang ku siram

Moga jiwamu tak di intai kelam

Anakanda berdua belaian jiwa

Nasihat ibu bukan bersahaja

Datang dari cebisan rasa

Berlandaskan fakta serta agama

Pastikan dulu arah tujumu

Tanamkan azam tekad di kalbu

Kekuatan dan keyakinan sudah bersatu

Gelombang yang datang gentar teraju

Dengarlah sayang ibu berkata

Di atas tinta curahan rasa

Hati keruan berdebar dada

Risau nasib mu di hari muka

18 tahun cabaran usia

Pancaroba datang tak kira ketika

Jangan kamu lalai dan juga alpa

Moga remaja mu mekar berwarna

Dewasa kamu gelisah menanti

Bimbang bencana menerjah diri

Doa ku pohon tiada henti

Jangan maruah dipandang sepi

Wahai puteri ku cahaya mata

Selami keluhan hati ibunda

Nasihat ibu pantang didusta

Kelak dirimu akan kecewa

Sekian kali mendengar bicara

Kepercayaan ibu jangan di noda

Jauhi sikap tipu dan dusta

Sejahtera hidupmu dimaya pada

Berdiam diri bukannya sudi

Gerak langkahmu ku kawal rapi

Dosa dan noda jangan dicari

Binasa hidupmu membakar diri

Andai kau tewas tanpa diduga

Hancur hati ku penawar tiada

Kemaafan ibu usah dipinta

Umpama tenggelam timbul tiada

Pabila ibu anakanda khianati

Kesan nya dasyat tidak terperi

Akan ku tutup hati nurani

Derita ku bawa sampai ke mati

Berperi ibu bukannya benci

Menyiksa dirimu jauh sekali

Harapan hati menggunung tinggi

Matang berfikir jangan bermimpi

Sayang pada mu tidak terperi

Sanggup ku gadai nyawa dan diri

Sabarnya ibu terbatas tepi

Berputih mata rela kau pergi

Ana dan Iya buah hati ku

Pada mu berdua ibu berseru

Cekerawala batasan ilmu

Terokai ia jangan kau jemu

Taburlah bakti sepenuh jiwa

Untuk agama, bangsa dan negara

Jangan balasan diharap pinta

Syurgawi pasti buatmu di sana

Noktah kehidupan sudahlah pasti

Ayah dan ibu mu tidak terkecuali

Saat dan ketika mengundur diri

Airmata dibuang jangan sekali

Perjuangan mu anak ku belum berakhir

Pemergian ibu memang di takdir

Panjatkan selalu doa dan zikir

Mudah urusanku penangan bibir

Tinta keturunan pantang digadai

Bak pantai indah dilanda badai

Bergegar bumi ikatan terlerai

Salasiah nendamu pastikan bersemai

Indah namamu manja bak puitis

Mewarnai maya umpama perintis

Harapan Ibunda kaulah waris

Penyambung warisan minda yang arif

Lanjut usia mu doa di pinta

Bahagia hidup mu lindungan Esa

Anakanda berdua belaian jiwa

Berjuanglah kamu bagai satria

Duhai puteri ku tambatan sukma

Pesanan ibu jadikan pusaka

Kemenangan dijulang sedetik masa

Namamu dikenang selama lama

Berakhir sudah gurindam rasa

Cetusan hati ayah dan bonda

Buat pedoman anakanda berdua

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